3rd Year Graduating

........Never thought tears can rain down me eyes without me noticing dem.........Geee man I felt less than half a man....my pride and joy is leaving me....the only reason I woke up for in the sad, hard, peniless mornings.......

The tongue language was not there, only body language......I kept hearing her sayin' it......take your degree......take your degreeeeee...........yes damit.IT'S OVER....... ohhhh man I thought I was strong enough to handle the pain......****where is dat damn hole so I can just dive into it?***** Damn am I dreamin' here or what?***Is it the 1st of April?****IS she gon' say "April fool?***" Ohhh no... not me, I was de 1 dumpin' the ladies... not de other way round......This is not happening..I dumped all me b*tches for her..... She was still quiet.......Then she started talking by the tears in her pretty browm eyes and the head noddin'........sideways.....

**Baby you know I lov...........she stopped me***DON"T SAY DAT cause I DON'T*****Have been trying to tell you dis for about 6 months now and have showed you de signs dat de shyt is over but you ignored them...""" Damn, den all de flashbacks started to hit like I was watching my live in a movie...........every single sign started to be clear.......... But now it's too late.........she's leaving.

Got up...........got mad............got furious.........got nervous.....got irritated........got......Ohhh no........I felt more love for her....I felt hate............I felt like dying.......I felt like .........never head so many voices and emotions in my life. *** Come on, act like you don' give a shyt she'll come back.........

After we parted...I drank lyk shyt for a very long time. Couldn't take the thought fo living without her....Ohhh.....I hear a love song...I see people kissin'............I hit my green bottle like it was de last one on earth.

I took her phone smash it down with anger.....I saw my hand moving as fast as it can to her face for a powerful clap..........just before it got to her pretty face.......her brown eyes cought me and I just couldn't beat her up. I stormed out of the flippin' place and just when I was about to reach the gate...she ran to me .......hugged me like never before.she kissed me like it was her first time kissin...........While our lips were touchin' I could feel the tears and her heart beat........

While I was still wondering and celebratin; dat she ain't leavin' me no mo', she shoved me to the wall like she was a wrestler and told me things I never thought she could say......I looked in her eyes and her face with de hope that the one I dumped all me b*tches for, the one I spent so much tym with, the one who gave me less tym with de boys, the one who wanted to get married to me a month back...........would overcome the creature, the demon, the b*tch I was talking to and come back............. It never happend.

You are useless****I never loved you*** I can't see you in my future**** you not in my plans*****I never loved you*******I have a man now******You mean shyt to me******you don't even have a job******you'll never get a job*******you wasting my time******am gon' get married to de guy I love now*****Was some of the things she said as my jaw was down on my knee and my eyes the size of a basket ball. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh I have to leave.this is too much......
Words just couldn't come out, mind blocked......... ***I love you**** was all I said.......... I left.